The universe is a vast, shining, ever-changing expanse. It's beautiful. If only people took the time to look out the window and stare at the night sky. To float out to the clouds, out of the atmosphere and into the stars. For a brief moment we can see them, we can see all the stars in the night sky, compacted into a single moment on our pale blue spec. But only for an instant, we can only live in our night sky, you and I, feel so happy I could die moment. Because we're too distracted, too caught up in everything else. The worries and issues we've created to consume our lives. To separate us from the dazzling expanse of life that is ours to be had. Possession? Why is joy associated with what you have? If it must be, then I would like to have the night sky, I would like to have joy from looking into the expanse alone. Take joy in living a life of joy, a life in which I love others and marvel at how many stars can exist in a moment. Marvel at the life I can live owning nothing but a gaze to place upon the good things and kind people I see. Give me the stars and I'll grant you my life, my love, my heart for there is no better thing than to be devoted to your love and loving one another. All I see are stars everywhere.
I followed the impulse up the stairs to stand in my bedroom, to fade into its familiarity. The same bed, the same tousled covers flung haphazardly the past morning. If we each owned a lifelong landscape, in this moment my bedroom would be mine. The same mess...the same solace. Sometimes being in my room feels like an escape. It feels like I could detach from the world and drift into the clouds on my worn rug island. I proceed to bury my face in the blankets, pick up a pillow and press it to my skin, plummet into a sweatshirt. My sanctuary. In here, even if it's temporary, I'm safe from everything else. Free from everyone else. I'm distracted from the inevitable. You're supposed to be looking for something... Ah! Thank you brain for the reminder. I'm here because I'm looking for something! Something I need... I feel my eyes snap into their searching regimen. Scan the room, glance left then right, identify the difference. Find what's out of place.....remove it...
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