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Pity Party Perfunctory: The First Dance

We all dance, we dance and dance and dance

Pretending to grow older, maturer, better

with new pacifiers attached to our hands

Soothe yourself with hum of a television

Stroke your thumb 'cross a luminous screen

Hide behind a skill or a title

We all dance, we dance and dance and dance

Remove the distractions and examine what's left

Just me

Just a failure

Inferiority complex? Or simple inferiority?

We all dance, we dance and dance and dance

Jump to sign up for greatness

Smile at your promise

Lie about your capabilities

Deny your foley

We all dance, we dance and dance and dance

Falling, fallen, sinking stumbling, tumbling deeper into ruin

What's left?

Reflect on your mistakes

Everything I touch is ridden with wrong

We all dance, we dance and dance and dance

We dance 'round the pain that exists in plain sight

We hide the hurt in humor and commonplace

We laugh at the life we've left behind

We normalize the humiliation

We all dance. we dance and dance and dance

A funny, futile jig of normalcy

A waltz of wallowing in one's own existence

A jive of jealousy

A posse of pride

We all dance, we dance and dance and dance

Everything I do is wrong

Everything I am isn't the right thing

Where did the good go?

It's all gone and now...We all dance, we dance and dance and dance

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