Saucers, beating bowls of brown, crayola colored crescents, expanding and retreating, veering right and slinking center, wandering into the wonders of my world—Thank you for my perception. Streams flowing, faltering round the peaks and valleys of my cheeks, releasing words unspoken in water. Salty and sparkling, retrieving the rain, the pain, the remnants of ruin and all that remains—My tears, thank you for falling. Unbound and bouncing, caressing my face, soft and wild, begrudgingly embraced. This head of hair is my crown, take its rightful place protecting my dreams from floating to space. This natural, never ending supply of black beauty—Thank you for being mine. This body, crafted by god, cradled by angels and passed to my mom, can carry my soul and my songs and for that I am grateful…Thank you to the gracious god who made me beautiful, even though I feel I’m not. Thank you for this body, a tent for terrific plans yet to come! A body, my body, a house for hope.
I followed the impulse up the stairs to stand in my bedroom, to fade into its familiarity. The same bed, the same tousled covers flung haphazardly the past morning. If we each owned a lifelong landscape, in this moment my bedroom would be mine. The same mess...the same solace. Sometimes being in my room feels like an escape. It feels like I could detach from the world and drift into the clouds on my worn rug island. I proceed to bury my face in the blankets, pick up a pillow and press it to my skin, plummet into a sweatshirt. My sanctuary. In here, even if it's temporary, I'm safe from everything else. Free from everyone else. I'm distracted from the inevitable. You're supposed to be looking for something... Ah! Thank you brain for the reminder. I'm here because I'm looking for something! Something I need... I feel my eyes snap into their searching regimen. Scan the room, glance left then right, identify the difference. Find what's out of place.....remove it...
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